LacuneRainChild
"Art helped give me a release from the harassment and helped calm my mind down when I would be
having anxiety. Also, it's helped me communicate to other people when it came to telling them what
happened to me.
For example, the painting with the red hand on it that's all streaked is the painting that I showed my
mom back in August when I finally told her about the part of the SH that I kept secret for a while... well, at
least to her. My friends knew about it before my family did. It was a good way for me to clarify what
happened, as well as to figure out how I felt about it.
In more of my drawings or paintings, there are themes of violence because I was having violent
thoughts against the guy that harassed me, and there was some self violence as well. There was a
period in time when it felt like I could still feel his hand on me, and I wanted to claw away the skin and
everything so I wouldn't have to feel it.
In one picture, I use song lyrics that fit PERFECTLY. The song is "Stricken" by the band Disturbed, and it
is basically about how someone enters your life and it's like they left this bloody mess, and you can't
get them out of your head... you can't let them go, and it is hurting you immensely. Every time I hear this
song it takes me back to my sophomore year where I was having really dark thoughts, and where I was
also harassed by him for a second time.
Sometimes in my art surrounding the harassment, there are a lot of spiders. To me, he is a big giant
spider... it is something I fear (I'm a notorious arachnophobic). Every time I want to put a bit of fear into
work, I include some spider-like shape."
having anxiety. Also, it's helped me communicate to other people when it came to telling them what
happened to me.
For example, the painting with the red hand on it that's all streaked is the painting that I showed my
mom back in August when I finally told her about the part of the SH that I kept secret for a while... well, at
least to her. My friends knew about it before my family did. It was a good way for me to clarify what
happened, as well as to figure out how I felt about it.
In more of my drawings or paintings, there are themes of violence because I was having violent
thoughts against the guy that harassed me, and there was some self violence as well. There was a
period in time when it felt like I could still feel his hand on me, and I wanted to claw away the skin and
everything so I wouldn't have to feel it.
In one picture, I use song lyrics that fit PERFECTLY. The song is "Stricken" by the band Disturbed, and it
is basically about how someone enters your life and it's like they left this bloody mess, and you can't
get them out of your head... you can't let them go, and it is hurting you immensely. Every time I hear this
song it takes me back to my sophomore year where I was having really dark thoughts, and where I was
also harassed by him for a second time.
Sometimes in my art surrounding the harassment, there are a lot of spiders. To me, he is a big giant
spider... it is something I fear (I'm a notorious arachnophobic). Every time I want to put a bit of fear into
work, I include some spider-like shape."
The Hand
Acrylic on cardboard
Acrylic on cardboard
Portrait of My Anxiety
Watercolor on watercolor paper
Watercolor on watercolor paper
My Own
Adobe Photoshop CS
Adobe Photoshop CS
Childhood Ends
Adobe Photoshop CS
Adobe Photoshop CS
Stricken
Ballpoint pen and marker on computer paper
Ballpoint pen and marker on computer paper