I have tried everything

Luna, Massachusetts
     I have loved school since I was little, but that all changed last year in the 6th grade.
     The first month went okay, but then he started to come over to me. At first he would just stand by my desk and talk to his friends. Soon he pointed sexual jokes at me, and made comments about my body.
     I tried to ignore him, but he made me so uncomfortable!!!
     I remember this one day that all the other kids were working on a project. My group and his group was finished, so I was reading a book and he came up to me he started to poke fun at me. He asked me if I wanted to “do it.” I did not pay attention to him, so he called me a few curse words. (Would you believe we go to a catholic school?) When he realized that he was not impressing his friends with his behavior, he stood up on the chair beside me and started to sing things about me that were way off, untrue and hurtful. (It was so bad I can’t repeat any of it here.)
     I ran to the other side of the room and cried..
     Over that next month I broke the growth plate in my arm from a biking accident. When I went in to school that Monday, he was there like he was waiting for me. He asked me how I hurt it and he said, “Chase’n after boys again slut!” It was a poor attempt but it still hurt. When a crowd gathered around me, he said some more nasty things about me and then as I turned to try to walk away, he hit the back of my arm. It hurt for hours and he meant it to.
     He harassed me for at least another month and then it slowed down (not stopped). I think he started to loose interest in me.
     He moved on to another girl. I remember she went through all the harassment I did. But with her, he went farther–he grabbed her in the chest. I remember how she went to the bathroom and cried. I remember the smug look of satisfaction in his face, and how he nodded up and down as she walked to her seat with tears in her eyes.
     Over that year I know he touched at least one other girl.
     I was scared to go back to that school. I could not tell my parents why I didn’t want to go back. I went back after that summer; he found his interest in me again.
     I have to tell you I have tried everything, he will not leave me alone. I tried to walk away, but he follows me. I’ve threatened to tell, but he doesn’t care.
     They teach us from grade one that we can tell a teacher, but in my place you can’t. I can remember the last time I tried to stand up for something–how he and his friends treated me made it worse than what I was standing up for! I can’t take any more of this, but I don’t think I can tell anyone. I am alone. I don’t know who I can talk to and and trust that they will not tell my parents. I have no doubt that if they found out they would pull me from the school. What am I suppose to do?

6 Responses to “I have tried everything”

  1. Brad Campbell says:

    YOU CAN DO THIS. TELL YOUR PARENTS FIRST, IF ALL ELSE FAILS JUST CALL 911 FROM YOUR HOME PHONE, once police get involved your parents will most deffinately care more, if they dont already, you arent alone, you can do this. :) take care and please enjoy your life.

  2. Jennifer says:

    The best thing you can do is tell your parents. It may hurt, but if they get involved you can have someone on your side. What he is doing isn’t right and you shouldn’t feel like this. Don’t feel like you have to go through this!!! This is school and no one should ever treat you like that. Just by posting this, you have taken one step. Tell your parents and if that doesn’t work, you should let teachers know as well. Don’t they see what is going on? If they do and don’t do anything about it, then tell your parents that too. I hope it works out for you and you don’t have to suffer anymore. Good luck!!

  3. michelle canham says:

    you really do need to talk to your mum and dad as hard as it may be, does your school have a counsellor? you can talk to them it really does help, they cannot do this to you, you have a right to happiness dont let them take that away from you, stand up for what you believe in.
    get help before its too late, they have no right to torture you.
    good on ya for posting on here you have taken the first step.
    good luck and keep us posted

  4. jennifer says:

    Just tell your parents and tell them you don’t want to leave the school. Also tell them to do something about it without affecting other……………………..

  5. Ana says:

    Talk with the other girls who are being or have been subjected to this, you must tell your parents and then your parents, you and the other girls must go to the school and present an official complaint. Also, lodge a complaint with the police. This guy is going to really hurt you or another girl, it is only a matter of time.

  6. Kaitlyn says:

    It gets better! I used to get bullied in school all the time, but now I am stronger because of it. It does get better. Stick with your schooling and talk to your parents about it or police. What he is doing is not ok and you don’t have to live with it. I went to the police and when I did the bullying stopped.
    Talk to someone, you will feel better!

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